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Brittany  

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The Pain And After

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 1, 2007, 4:52 PM
i hate the pain
i hate the suffering
why can't it go
away...
away forever
like a lost memory
a memory from the...
past
i hate it
i wish it would leave
never to come back

i hate the pain
i hate the suffering
i could cut myself
to make all the pain go away
then who would i be
i would be nothing
no one

the only ones that love me...
are distant in my mind...
and from my body
i wish it to go
i will it to go
LEAVE!!!!!!!
NEVER COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!

the pain
the suffering
i hate it
i wish i could...
cry sometimes
or just die
to get rid of the pain

i will
i will die now...
and forever

here goes...
i cut myself deep
so deep that i do not feel the...
pain that i have been suffering from
i cry out with laughter...
but when i stop the cutting...
the pain comes back
the suffering...
and i cry...
out with sorrow

so i continue
...
i am now in a puddle of my blood
dying
slowly...
with no pain now
i am numb

the one who is distant
the very one that loves me
is now in the room
i can barely see him
he picks me up...
and cradles me in his strong arms
until i slip into unconsciousness
i feel loved...

i wake up in a room stareing at a white ceiling....
i think it is a hospital
i see my distant family...
just barely
he is right beside me
holding my hand
i squeeze his hand
he squeezes back
he leans over and kisses me...
on the cheek

i love you...
you are the only one who cares
i say...
i love you too
do not do that again...
in that sweet soft deep voice
he says

i am sorry i say...
i realise now...
that it is my uncle
he cares about me
the only one who cares

i love you...

the pain is gone now
i am not in that white...
ceilinged place anymore
i am sitting with him at a table
my arms and legs bandaged up
we are holding hands
we are looking at each others eyes
his are blue
mine are green
we both say...
...
...
...
...
...
...
i love you

This Poem Is Dedicated To My Uncle

  • Mood: Rejected
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 15
  • Current Residence: Magnolia, Delaware
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: huh
  • Print preference: i do not know
  • Interests: drawing JOINING MARINES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  • Favourite movie: all military movies so i do not have just one fave movie
  • Favourite band or musician: annilhilator
  • Favourite genre of music: heavy metal/deth metal
  • Favourite artist: micheal angelo
  • Favourite poet or writer: edgar allen poe
  • Favourite photographer: well my uncle earl does alot of pictures so i guess him
  • Favourite style of art: just drawing random things
  • Operating System: lined or plain paper
  • MP3 player of choice: any plain c-d player will work for me
  • Shell of choice: ?????
  • Wallpaper of choice: the one here in deviant art that you see right now
  • Skin of choice: My own
  • Favourite game: spy fiction
  • Favourite gaming platform: Xbox
  • Favourite cartoon character: Edward Elric
  • Personal Quote: Uncle Earl: Don't throw stones in glass houses
  • Tools of the Trade: any type of drawing utencil with an eraser

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~joendy:iconjoendy: May 29, 2008, 3:39:23 AM
Thank you for the fav!
~earthstar001:iconearthstar001: Mar 31, 2008, 2:30:19 PM
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~silence-is-sexy:iconsilence-is-sexy: Feb 26, 2008, 10:29:28 PM
Thank you so much for your favorite on my deviation, the Catholic School Girl Series. I'm so sorry it's taken me so long to get back to you, I've been away from DA for quite some time! If you're interested, I'm back and trying to improve my writing these days at ~537405! Thanks for your support.

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~LittleFallingStar:iconLittleFallingStar: Jan 2, 2008, 6:05:26 AM
Thank you for the fav. on my story, I'm glad you like it :-)
~SushiiSquirrel:iconSushiiSquirrel: Dec 30, 2007, 8:40:10 PM
Thanks for the fav!

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~ubille:iconubille: Dec 28, 2007, 5:08:18 AM
thanks for the fav :aww:

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=jamiesama:iconjamiesama: Dec 27, 2007, 11:43:36 PM
Please fave the original on my site thank you! [link]

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~memuffinismissing:iconmemuffinismissing: Dec 26, 2007, 2:57:10 PM
Thanks!

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*RachBourne:iconRachBourne: Dec 24, 2007, 5:59:59 AM
have you written the poem of your journal? well, is amazing...

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=artistm0nk:iconartistm0nk: Dec 23, 2007, 7:16:43 PM
:frail::teddy: Thanks!!! :teddy::frail:

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~Hellstorm6514:iconHellstorm6514: Dec 23, 2007, 1:52:17 AM
Thankyou for the favourite ^^ much appreciated.
~furyfull:iconfuryfull: Dec 22, 2007, 7:02:47 PM
thanks for the favs :D
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~rxpture:iconrxpture: Dec 22, 2007, 8:48:47 AM
thanks for the fave :D

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*AmorinaAshton:iconAmorinaAshton: Dec 21, 2007, 10:17:44 AM
:-) Thank you for the :+fav:'s Brittany and Happy Holidays :santa:
~LadyRavenShadow:iconLadyRavenShadow: Dec 21, 2007, 7:32:51 AM
Thanks so much for the fav!

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~earthstar001:iconearthstar001: Dec 20, 2007, 2:53:59 PM
thanx 4 teh :+devwatch:

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Barak Obama is endorced by Islamic terrorists...yeah I want him for my president

Defeat Osama, Obama, and Chelsie's mama.
~earthstar001:iconearthstar001: Dec 20, 2007, 2:52:19 PM
thanx 4 teh :+fav:'s

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Barak Obama is endorced by Islamic terrorists...yeah I want him for my president

Defeat Osama, Obama, and Chelsie's mama.
=grampsart:icongrampsart: Dec 20, 2007, 1:23:01 AM
thanks for the :+fav:

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~slenderthunder:iconslenderthunder: Dec 19, 2007, 10:47:17 PM
Thanks for the fave-glad you like her.

:)

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*BiondoArt-dot-com:iconBiondoArt-dot-com: Dec 19, 2007, 3:06:32 PM
Thank you for adding my drawing to your favorites! I really like to make those drawings, so it feels good to know that other people like them too. Michaelangelo is my favorite artist as well! Thanks again!

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~JulieRaven:iconJulieRaven: Dec 19, 2007, 2:31:37 PM
=) Thank you for the fav <3

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*AmorinaAshton:iconAmorinaAshton: Dec 19, 2007, 11:32:49 AM Mood: Joy
Thank you very much for all the :+fav:'s and the watch :-)